Damisi here! Did you catch Ibiso’s article a couple of weeks ago? I loved it, if you missed it get it here. As I was preparing to my article I had to really contemplate over where God has brought me from. You see for me, my struggle played out in the public eye. Oh, I wanted to hang my head in the sand and just die. It is harder when you fall from the pedestal the public put you on. However, for me, I didn’t just fall but I was condemned. Condemnation came from the fact that I should have known better. After all, Christians never make mistakes, right? (Side eye)
Living an expectant life is also about forgiving yourself for past mistakes, accepting His forgiveness and walk in the predestined purpose He’s called for you. It means knowing that your latter days will be greater than your former day no matter how dark your reality is.
My reality was so dark after the huge scandal that broke out. I couldn’t forgive myself because I acknowledged that at a point, I stopped trusting to the Holy Spirit to move my television show the way it was supposed to go. Instead like Sarah, I decided to help Him out. Just like Sarah, it was a disaster. A pure disaster. The press ate me alive. If not for my husband, family and friends I have no idea how I would have survived.
The truth of the matter is that God loves us unconditionally. He will be displeased at our mistakes and we will often have consequences for our mistakes but nothing can separate us from His love. While that is biblically true, raise your hand for me, if sometimes you feel unworthy and so beat yourself up the more.
I have my two hands raised high. That was me. I was forgiven, I know I was but I couldn’t accept it. So, I keep moping around with my head in the sand. The enemy will try to rob you of your hope. Without hope there is nothing to live for. I got to that point. I was a failure and a disgrace. Sponsor dropped me left and right. I was fired from my job, what more could go wrong? Well everything did, but I have a God who heals the broken hearted and is a lifter of my head but I gotta expect that good things will come out of my mess. And it did. I was fired from my show Becoming Ruth and in the ashes of my despair, the beauty that is known as Mosaic was born. How I came about the name is a real cute story, I tell it in my book Anchored By Love.
A lot of amazing things have happened since God lifted my head from shame. I can’t wait for you to read about them in Kammy’s book, Mended With Love. If you haven’t pre-ordered it do so here. And while you are at it, say a prayer for Ebele because that brother in law of mine has no sense. I do think she can handle him thought
My hubby is doing well. Still overbearing but I and the girls love him regardless. If you haven’t read our story, what are you waiting on. Order it here and catch us tomorrow right here on the blog.
You’ll hear from me soon in Mended releasing Oct 6th…that’s Friday! In the meantime, remember, in the words of Donnie McClurkin…” A Saint is Just a Sinner Who fell down and gets back up.” You will fall, after all we are not Jesus, but don’t ever let the enemy tell you that you can’t get back up. Peter denied Jesus 3 whole times. Jesus was his buddy, they rolled tight. But still he denied Him but Peter got up and on him, Christ built His church.