So I’m back to my home base. How has everyone been? Initially I was going to write a post about my trip but I had a conversation yesterday and I think I would write about that instead. I’ll still tell you what went on back home (Nigeria) in a latter post but this is important, at least I hope it helps someone.
So after weeks of waking up and being driven around from one radio station to another promoting the movie Tempting Fate, doing television interviews about the movie and my books, seeing family members, trying to write a little, I finally land back in Atlanta feeling like my “normal” life stopped and I stepped into someone else’s. I seriously want my “normal” life back.
And so in a conversation with my editor, I began to whine… “ugh..I can’t get back into the novel yet” ” I just want my normal routine back” “ugh I can’t wait to get back into my flow.” She stops me and asks…”Do you really want to go back to normal?” I quickly answer “No” without really thinking about it and we get back into a previous conversation. But later, I though about it…
That was so ungrateful of me to dare whine when God had answered the very prayer my husband and I had been praying about for the past two years… a successful premiere and reception of our movie in Nigeria!!
It wasn’t a conscious attempt to be ungrateful but it was still ungrateful all the same. I had to repent immediately asking God for forgiveness and I’ve started adjusting to my “new normal”. Change my routine around a little to adjust to the notoriety of being known as the producer of the movie, in addition to my writing and mummy schedule. What did I expect would happen? That I would go to some mediocre ceremony and come back to my comfortable life?
Ephesians 3:20 says He will do exceedingly above all we hope or can imagine. We say this verse but are we ready for His “exceedingly” My God did more than I can imagine. When I stepped out of that limo and all those camera lights flashed…I couldn’t believe it. The reception of the movie still blows my mind. But what did I expect? I guess that’s why the Word says He will do more than we can imagine.
I write all this to say…when you’re grinding in your purpose, be prepared to do whatever adjusting is necessary when the need calls for it. Wake up with an expectation of abundance(not necessarily money) and more importantly, be ready and open to receive. Pay attention to the prayers God has answered so as not to miss the chance to give thanks.
So, I’ve buckled down, unpacked, gotten my house together, prepared the kids for the school year, whipped out my new short story, then on to tidying up my fifth novel so I can start on the sixth one.
The less routine, the more life~ Amos Alcott
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4 thoughts on “What Did I Expect?”
I understand this post so much. When Omar Tryee called my name at the Wheatley Awards ceremony I bent over in the audience and “Oh my God is this really happening?” and immediately He answered me, “Didn’t you pray for this?” I jumped up on that stage after that and the days following that were crazy. It wasn’t what I was used to and maybe that’s what shook me up, but I’m going to follow your advice and wake up expecting abundance. Amen. 🙂
Yep, we need to check ourselves sometimes. This is why i found that video hilarious
This is so true in my world, I get so caught up in the process at work I don’t realize it can work another way. Thank you for this self check.
Thanks for reading. It was a self check for me too
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