So I did a video yesterday…yay me! That was so outside my comfort zone but I did it. Being the introvert that I am, I really struggled with putting it out there, but I answered the call and I’m glad I did. Some people were actually blessed by what I had to share. You can check it out on my Facebook page
Anyway I digress, I was reading Francine Rivers blog and I came upon a post titled the Creative Mind is Seldom Tidy… she struck the nail on the head for me. But forget not tidy, mine is currently a war zone that it is literally giving me a headache.
So here is my dilemma, writing is my passion, writing for God is my purpose. So I know I’m walking in my destiny and I’m so thankful for the fulfillment it gives me.But then my type A personality kicks in and herein lies the problem. I rely on the Holy Spirit for my inspiration. He is the source from which the words flow. But then I set deadlines I strive to meet and constantly entertain characters that are just talking ever so loudly in my head wanting their story told.
For example, I’m writing a 3 part series now called Sons Of Ishmael . I’m in the revisions stage for the first book titled A Scoop Of Love , Rasheed, the hero still needs to be vetted out but his brother, Jabir from book 2, Anchored by Love is driving me crazy. Oh, and it’s not just him…the whole gang is speaking at the same time.
Anyway I’m working as fast as I can but now I’m getting overwhelmed and the reason I know this is that somehow I don’t feel the Spirit working anymore. He is silent, so the revisions are becoming a painful process. *le sigh* I talked to my hubby and he gives me a couple of Bible verses to read and encouraging words to calm my nerves…
- John 14 : 1… “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God believe also in me.
- Psalm 61: 2 which is actually my best…. From the ends of the earth I call to you, I call as my heart grows faint lead me to the rock that is higher than I
- Psalm 37:5 Commit your way to the Lord; trust in him and he will do this
They did the trick and I was at peace, but then this nagging feeling rears its ugly head again. Does a romance writer wait for something romantic to happen before writing? Some romance writers are not even romantic… you get my drift right? I know I’m writing for God, and I want my readers to get the best message out of the story but how long do I wait? Supposing I don’t ‘hear’ and my deadline passes?
Then something I read recently give me peace…“when you take your eyes of the “why” of your purpose it becomes about you.” Writing is not about me at all, so I’m going to have to learn that even though my deadline gets busted, His time is best. But I can afford that luxury, I tend to think about those who have contracts with others..how do they do it?
Are you a Christian fiction writer, blogger? Do you struggle with this too? Or do you struggle with deadlines in your everyday life?
Are you a reader of Christian fiction? If your favorite author delayed a book because of waiting how would you feel?
Love to hear your comments,